Copy of Letter From: Muhammad Sulaiman (Curtis Walhgren) To: Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen (Louie Beutler) Date: August 21, 2002 My precious loving brother, Shaikh Muhaiyaddeen, jeweled light of my eyes. Meechum, Meechum anbu. All prayers and all praising is to Allah and to Him alone. He is the primal unique One and nothing else but Him exists in Truth and Reality. What a grace is our loving father Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Him) and what a blessing are His children who are striving to follow His example and His teachings and to bring Him into their lives as the One who guides and directs their every thought, intention and action. May we all come to that state of unity with our Father which is the state that He desires for all of His children. May Allah grant that you are well and that your lovely wife, Chrisi, is also well. I saw her in the Safeway store yesterday and spoke briefly with her. She looked very tired and worn down. These letters that are being sent out by you through the grace of our Father are such a blessing for my life. I find them to be a wonderful aid to strengthening my faith, certitude and determination as well as to my understanding of the proper relation between my Father and His child. I confess that it feels to me that only in the past two or three months that my need to truly know my Father and to understand His teachings and to walk behind Him at all times in my life has been awakened. Whether this is in truth what has happened or just my ignorance making it appear this way, I do not know. I only know that I truly thank God/Bawa for awakening this awareness within me and giving me the opportunity to try to understand who I really am and who my Father/Guru/Shaikh really is. I have been trying to read the "Resonance Of Allah" with Bawa's guidance and direction and finding that it is an INCREDIBLY deep, dense, subtle, and mystical journey. It may well be that all that is contained in the "Resonance" is also contained in "The Pearl of Wisdom" but I certainly do not have the wisdom to be able to say this with clarity. Clearly both cannot possibly be read and understood on even the most simple and shallow level without the Shaikh coming to give the explanation. A few questions came to me during the last few days and I thought of asking you about your experience regarding these questions. - When you started asking for Bawa's guidance and direction constantly in your heart were there times when you needed to distinguish between whether the answer that came in response to your question came from your mind or from Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Him)? Or did you always have the certitude of faith that if you asked Bawa for the answer that the answer came from Bawa and that your mind would have to "sit down" at a time like that? - Are there times when you ask Bawa a question about what to do now, or some deeper question, when there is no answer that comes? What do you do in instances like this? - Is it your experience that the Zikr is constantly going on within us and that it is only that sometimes we are aware of it? For example when we consciously sit down with the intention of asking Bawa to come and "do the Zikr"? Or is it your experience that the intention to "do the Zikr" in a state of surrender to Bawa Muhaiyaddeen (may God be pleased with Him) somehow brings this state of Zikr to being within us. (I cannot believe that this is actually the case.) - When I ask Bawa what to do and he gives me permission to "do the Zikr" I tell Him that He has to come and do the Zikr since I cannot possibly do this. I say the name "Bawa" before each breath and wait for Him to come and perform this Zikr. I definitely have the feeling of waiting for a gift to be given. I have no sense that there is anything that I can do to "make it happen" or to improve my chances of doing the Zikr properly. Then at certain times I am aware of something special that happens - almost as if a wind goes through me (this is a bad example but it is something different than normal and special). I try to align my feeling, awareness, intellect, etc. with this feeling that is going on inside me and go along with it. I am aware of trying to empty myself and just go along with this experience and follow it as closely as possible. At times it is quite clear when the mind comes in and tries to bring something else to distract "me" from what is going on with this special feeling. I tell Bawa that He has to come and let the mind sit down on one side and desire sit down on the other side. I tell Him that He has to make earth be removed from me and sit down on another side, and likewise with fire, water, air and ether. What advice do you have about all of this? What is your experience with these things that I am describing? Please forgive the foolish questions of this foolish brother. My love you my dear, precious brother "Louie". Muhammad Sulaiman End of Letter -------------------- Return To Spiritual Letter 31: |
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